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Between You And Me, Dad

June 15, 2014 by Kristen 14 Comments

Unfortunately I do not get to deliver a hand written letter or card to honor you today on Father’s Day. I don’t get to make you breakfast in bed. I don’t get to go to a movie with you, and then take you out to dinner. I don’t get to buy you socks. Or boxers. Or a new tie. Or any of that other “stuff” that many people take for granted on Father’s Day. But maybe, just maybe, sending a little message through the Internet will reach you somehow, someway.

I lost you way too early in my life. I still haven’t gotten over it. I miss you every second of every minute of every hour of every day, and I will never get over it. Thank goodness you instilled in me a sense of strength, otherwise my path in life may have gone in a completely different direction once I lost you. But instead, I became stronger, wiser, and more appreciative of the days I get to live and realize more in this world.

These past years have been spent working hard to build a solid career and one that I love pouring my energy into every day. It was a bumpy road at times, but the hard work and sleepless nights paid off ten fold. Even though I never once thought that I would be teaching and overseeing an entire program at the university level, it has opened me up to new perspectives and challenges that make me a better person.

I started running because of you and have developed a relationship with health and fitness that was once hindered by self-consciousness and doubt. I continue to grow mentally and physically stronger taking on new challenges and working hard to be the greatest version of myself. I love stretching my mind and body only to discover that I’m a lot tougher than I once believed and have even greater potential to reach for.

You are always with me during my happy time. When I am training, whether it be running the trails of Bend, swimming the laps of a pool, or biking the open roads that weave through farmland and/or mountains, I think of you and feel your presence in my heart. Just last week, on our way to Ironman 70.3 Boise, I felt your presence as we drove through Juntura and I was reminded of the bird hunting trips you let me tag along for. You taught me to do things at a young age that I didn’t realize how much I would grow to love and appreciate until now. Thank you for physical strength and instilling the courage to strive for more.

You would be best friends with Justin. It’s tough to accept that you will never have the chance to meet one another here on Earth, but I have no doubt that you would have loved him. He is an amazing husband and best friend. I know growing up that you doubted some of my relationship choices, justifiably so, but I can assure you that Justin would make the perfect son-in-law. I am in good hands and you will never have to worry.

Mom has been amazing. She could never take your place, but has been there for me through thick and thin. My relationship with her is truly unique and special. I try to do my best to keep in touch with family, but life always seems to be busy and I know I can do a better job. Knowing that I am the one piece of you that remains makes it extra important for me to connect to all those who are and were important to you. You will always live on in me and I will always strive to make you proud.

I miss you so much, daddy. I always think about what it would be like to go fishing again, floating down the cool drift of the John Day River, or to see your face waiting for me as I cross the finish line of one of my races, or to BBQ and enjoy a beer after a day of adventures, cause let’s face it – every day with you was an adventure. If I could just have one more day…

Thank you for being the best dad a girl could have asked for and for continuing to impact my life as I make decisions and tackle new feats each day. You are always with me. I will never fully understand how someone as remarkable and healthy as you could have been taken from this world, but I guess some things are best left unknown. Lucky Heaven.

I love you, Dad. Happy Father’s Day.

Is There a Downside to Being Happy?

March 27, 2014 by Kristen 31 Comments

I sure can’t think of one. So, why not want more of it? My husband and I recently watched a documentary on Netflix called Happy, which explores human happiness through interviews with people from all walks of life in 14 different countries. I highly recommend this movie for a number of reasons, but mostly because it discusses the science behind happiness and gives a perspective of what happiness is and means in different cultures around the world. The takeaway message was simple: we all can do things to increase our levels of happiness, and what we think might make us happy is often actually not the case at all. Here is a little preview:

Two days ago I came across a conversation between Erin, Beth, and Amy about a happiness challenge called 100 Happy Days. I was intrigued and inspired. I decided to commit to the challenge and document each day a thing or things that bring me happiness. I found this challenge to be quite interesting because of what I know about the science behind happiness.

Something I have always been interested in is the positive side of human behavior and thinking. At Oregon State University, I actually developed and taught an advanced level course on Positive Psychology, where the primary focus was on the good and positive in our lives. Much of the field of Psychology is centered around cognition, emotion, and behavior in it’s negative form, and while it is important to understand where these negative processes come from, it is just as important to recognize and understand the good and positive side of being as well. Thus, the field of Positive Psychology was born.

One of the first things I had my Positive Psychology students do in the classroom was to identify their character strengths. I highly recommend you do this too – go to http://www.authentichappiness.org and complete the VIA Survey of Character Strengths – it takes some time, but is well worth it. Character strengths are universal natural strengths that require no effort, make us feel energized, and are connected to six core virtues. The more we use our strengths, the more they can lead to fulfillment, growth, self-acceptance, positive affect, stronger relations with others, and greater well-being. These strengths are classified under the six core virtues:

The students then had to complete a project where they used their top three character strengths in unique ways over the term, and to observe and evaluate how it affected them and those around them. It was fascinating to read and listen to their stories, and the overwhelmingly positive response that I received from integrating day-to-day life into the course through this assignment. My top three strengths are zest/energy, social intelligence, and hope/optimism/future mindedness.

Another thing we discussed throughout the term were the ways in which we can control and increase our own levels of happiness. According to researchers who study happiness, 50 percent of our happiness is instilled in our genetics, 10 percent is due to uncontrollable circumstances, and about 40 percent of our happiness is under our own control.

Therefore, 40 percent of our happiness depends on what we do, how we live, and day to day thoughts that play out in our interactions and behaviors. Of course researchers have jumped all over the concept of what we can control and how we can all go about being happier. Scientific attempts to boost happiness have shown that there are several things we can do, and little changes we can make on a daily basis to become happier. Some, but not all, of these things include:

1) Expressing gratitude – Writing a letter, saying thank you, keeping a gratitude journal, or just being more appreciative of what we have are all ways that we can be more grateful of what we have. Many of us may feel grateful, but outwardly showing and expressing gratitude has a much greater impact.

2) Performing acts of kindness – Volunteering or doing a good deed for another without any expectations in return has immediate effects on happiness and serves to better both parties involved.

3) Counting blessings – Write down three (or more) good things every day before going to bed. When we acknowledge and think about the good in our day, especially before we fall asleep, we are more likely to sleep soundly and wake up in a more positive mood.

4) Engaging in activities that produce FLOW – I mentioned the idea of flow in a previous post, but it is the idea that we need to take time to do the things that make us feel exhilarated and produce optimal experiences where we can perform at our best. Here is one way to think of how flow is produced – the right amount of challenge given a certain level of skill.

5) Physical activity and exercise – No surprise here. There is a plethora of research that reveals the more we integrate movement into our lives, the healthier and more energetic we will feel. Not to mention, exercise is also a buffer against mental illness and can alleviate symptoms of mild depression and anxiety.

6) Savoring and mindfulness – Often times we get ahead of ourselves and are thinking about the next task or thing we need to do before finishing the task at hand. By being mindful of the moment and/or savoring something that often is devalued, we can live more in the present and slow down. When we think too much about the past or future, anxiety is likely to occur.

One of the tasks I had my students do was to take a moment and truly savor something that would commonly be overlooked or devalued. Their choices ranged from preparing a meal and eating, to walking from one class to another on campus and enjoying the people and scenery around them, to making their bed and cleaning up their room. It was interesting to see how much more thought and appreciation they had for these everyday tasks.

7) Meditate – Taking some quiet time each day to clear our thoughts and relax our body can not only reduce stress, but induce feelings of calm and contentment.

8) Prioritizing our close relationships – Building close relations with others is one of the most rewarding and powerful things we can do with our time. Humans have a strong need to belong and find acceptance from those around them, and in doing so, can find much joy in these relations. However, not all relationships are created equal. Connecting with those who build us up, not bring us down, is the key to generating positive outcomes.

9) Sleep – When we don’t get enough sleep, particularly over long periods of time, our mood can take a substantial hit and we live in a very fatigued state of mind. Our bodies not only need sleep for physical reasons, but for mental and emotional reasons as well. Try going a week with only a few hours of sleep a night and then ask those around you how fun you are to be around. 🙂

10) Using our character strengths – Whether at work, in school, at home, or while engaged in a hobby, when we start integrating our strengths in new and novel ways, it can lead to greater success and more pleasing outcomes.

11) Be happy – Sounds cliché, but the more we make an effort to act happy, smile, and be more optimistic, the more that going through the motions can lead to positive emotions. Plus, happiness can be contagious. Your smile might cause someone else to smile, and so on. Likewise, when we are having a bad day, sometimes just one positive interaction can lift a spirit.

Each week during the term, I had my students complete one of these tasks that coincided with the topics and material that was presented during the week. I was amazed by the subtle changes I saw in my students and the connections that were made within a classroom of 25. People opened up, showed support for one another, and it seemingly made the learning environment more natural and comfortable for all. Even those who had been quiet and indifferent in other classes of mine were able to open up and break out of their shell.

Although I have been unable to teach this course on campus given my new position with the Ecampus program, I still enjoy sharing my knowledge and trying to live in a way that represents many of these ideals. The 100 Happy Days project reminded me of yet another way in which we can take control of our emotions and live in a way that acknowledges and appreciates the good that we have in our lives.
Who wouldn’t want to be happy?

If you took the strengths test, what were your top three strengths?
Which of these techniques do you use or could you use more to increase happiness?
Do you do anything that isn’t mentioned here? What are your secrets to happiness?

BEHIND EVERY GREAT RUNNER…

March 6, 2014 by Kristen 8 Comments

A few days ago, I asked (maybe urged) my husband to do a guest post for my blog. Justin is the best writer I know, and I sometimes wonder why it is me who has the blog. I told him he could write about anything and he surprised me with something very near and dear to my heart. Sit back and enjoy…

It’s not often that Kristen hands me the keys to Glitter & Dust with the instructions to “take it for a spin.” In fact, this is the first and hopefully not the last time I have been invited to pen my thoughts about whatever subject interests me. Fly-fishing immediately comes to mind. So does marketing. Two topics that are of great interest to me personally, but probably not shared by many others.

So rather than write about something that is of interest only to me, I figured I’d write about something broader. Specifically, my place in Kristen’s training and racing life, and the role I willingly and happily play when it comes encouraging, motivating, and supporting her athletic endeavors and achievements.

I’m certainly not alone in my efforts. Behind every great runner (or just every runner, for that matter) there is a support team that helps make it all happen. Spouses, significant others, loved ones, friends, family, other racers, volunteers, and on, and on, and on, all play a role. But since this is a firsthand account I’ll focus on my role in the process, as just one cog in the wheel, and what I do to help make Kristen’s pre-race, race day, and post-race experiences the best they can be.

Pre-Race
Pre-race support begins weeks if not months ahead of the actual race, and culminates with the pre-race meal the night before the big day. It mainly focuses on the training side of the equation, but has other valuable elements as well, particularly as we get closer to the race. On shorter training runs, I’m happy to tag along if only for the entertainment value I provide. My “running” pace is more of a brisk walk for Kristen, but slow runs are good for her once in a while—even if they aren’t slow by my standards! But for longer runs (15-20 miles), I hop on my mountain bike and ride alongside her for support. I carry extra water, food, and clothing, offer conversation to break up the monotony, and croon an occasional “Eye of the Tiger” on hills to keep her motivated and amused.

Throughout the entire training process, my job is simply to keep Kristen motivated, upbeat, and focused on the positive if any doubts creep into her head. Whether it’s to remind her of the dividends that all the training will pay, keep her focused on the end goal, or to simply compliment her on how well her outfit matches. Whatever it takes, right?

Some friends jokingly nicknamed us Krustin, a la Tomkat or Brangelina.

As we get closer to race day, and the training turns to tapering, my role also changes and begins to focus on the race itself. Depending on the length, location, course conditions, etc., I begin to plan out my own race day strategy. Where will I cheer her on from the course? Will I need to bike from location to location or will I drive? How long will it take her to get from point A to point B to point C to point D, etc.

If it’s a local race, and a course I am familiar with, I might even bust out the sidewalk chalk and poster board to line the course with inspiring messages for Kristen, as well as the other racers. The afternoon or evening before the race, I’ll sneak out to the office to make some signs, then drive to a few spots on the course to put them up and write some encouraging words. I remember after one race hearing a woman who had seen all of the signs and chalk along the course say something like, “Who the heck is racer #343 anyway?” I gave myself a pat on the back after hearing that one. ☺

No race is complete without one of Kristen’s favorite pastimes, Packet Pickup. Whether it’s the surprises that await in the goodie bag, the vendors at the pre-race expo, or the nervous anticipation building inside all the racers, there’s something about packet pickup that flips a switch in Kristen and hones her focus for the race. It’s fun to watch her go from being excited and energetic, to being quiet and reserved. The calm before the storm.

If she’s racing on an unfamiliar course, such as the Seattle Marathon, we’ll do a preview of the entire course following packet pickup. In Seattle, we drove the vast majority of the course, then ran a six-mile stretch that included their version of “heartbreak hill.” Hopefully it helped come race day, knowing where the opportunities were to step on the gas, where it was wise to let off the gas, and where there was risk of running out of gas!

The last, and perhaps the most important of my pre-race responsibilities is the pre-race meal. Making sure Kristen’s body has the fuel it is going to need for the day is a challenge that we have found the perfect solution to: Dungeness Crab. How great is it when your pre-race meal just so happens to consist of your favorite. Food. Ever. The stats don’t lie on Dungeness Crab: high in protein (19g per serving), very high in electrolytes (particularly sodium, potassium and magnesium), and extremely high in vitamin B12 (energy booster). It’s also low in calories and fat. I oven roast the crab with a seasoning of salt, pepper, shallots, thyme, and parsley, and coat it with a reduction of those ingredients plus blood orange juice and peel. The result, I think, is one of the tastiest meals I have ever had, and one that gives Kristen a definite “leg up” (Crabs have 10 of them, after all) on race day.

Race Day
For most runners, race day starts early and the same is true in the Yax household. A pre-dawn wake-up call is followed almost immediately by a cup of coffee to literally and figuratively gets things going. While Kristen is putting in her race braids, I’ll make myself busy with a number of tasks including once again playing “Eye of the Tiger,” the Rocky theme song, or Katy Perry’s “Roar” through the iPad, gathering food, nutrition, clothing, and gear, and adding one more bit of motivation.

I usually try to have a good luck card and some sort of trinket for Kristen when she comes downstairs, in part to lighten the mood and in part to remind her that I’m proud of her accomplishments. The race, after all, is the destination of a much longer journey. It’s the celebration of months and months of incremental daily accomplishments, and when the race ends the journey still continues. Besides, what could be luckier than a banana card on race day morning?

While Kristen is eating her pre-race peanut butter and banana, I make sure I have everything I’m going to need for the day’s support efforts. Mountain bike, helmet, shoes, and gloves? Check. Backpack? Check. Camera? Check. Lots of extra clothes, gum, food, water, gloves, hats, flip flops, lip balm, etc., etc., etc.? Double check!!!

I’ll need all of that gear, and sometimes more, as I make my way around the course throughout the race. Whether as a place to stash layers that are peeled off right before the gun goes off, or to hold additional clothing in the event of rain/snow/hail/wind/sun or all of the above, it’s good to be prepared and I have learned that you never know when you’re going to have to fulfill the occasional “if only I brought a…” request. When in doubt, I try to pack with the motto, “it’s better to have it and not need it, than to need it and not have it!”

Once the gun goes off, I’m left at the starting line, backpack in tow, ready to pedal like crazy to get to the first viewpoint in time to set the bike down, get the camera ready, and to try to anticipate any needs/requests that might come when I see her. Usually, the first time I see Kristen on the course is captured on film with some article of clothing being tossed at me as she attempts to cool down.

Then it’s back on the bike, hustle to the next location, cheer and photograph some more, give her fresh gum and a pat on the butt, and tell her how great she’s doing. That process gets repeated several times over the next 90 minutes to four hours, depending on the race and Kristen’s frame of mind. Generally speaking, I try to be in at least two and as many as five locations along the way to cheer. If she’s not feeling well or is having an off day, I’ll run with her for a bit and give her a little “pep talk” along the way. Or, if she’s in a really bad mood I’ll say or do something to intentionally make her mad. It’s my way of giving her a taste of her own medicine—a little reverse psychology on the psychology instructor—and the one time I used it, it really seemed to work. You should see how fast she is capable of running when she’s pissed off! ☺

The tricky part about cheering and spectating throughout the race is to make sure you leave yourself enough time after the last stop to get to the finish area, find parking, and get to the finish line in time to see your athlete finish. So far, I haven’t missed one of Kristen’s finishes yet (knock on wood) but I have come dangerously close. Particularly at the Sunriver 1/2 Marathon and the Seattle Marathon, where parking proved to be more difficult than I had anticipated and left me with a finish line sprint of my own in order to get there in time.

Post Race
Watching Kristen sprint through the finishing chute is always fun, as there is a huge sense of elation—and sometimes relief—on her part for completing the event. That sense of elation is usually followed closely by the typical “That was the hardest thing I’ve done in my life!” and “Why do I do this?” comments, which are in turn followed by the “I can’t wait to do this race again next year!” comment.

After Kristen cools down and changes clothes, one of my last jobs is to keep an eye on the results being posted and to keep her company while waiting for the awards ceremony. I try to keep tabs of her position within the race as it unfolds on the course, but usually don’t get it right so it’s a wait-and-see affair after the race. Kristen has been fortunate to have some great finishes over the years, and I’ve been proud to be there to see and to photograph her receiving various medals, mugs, plaques, and ribbons.

And from this point, the journey begins anew with planning and preparation for the next big race. It’s a great big cycle that doesn’t really have a beginning or an end, it just kind of chugs along in perpetuity. But along the way, it has its triumphs and tragedies, highs and lows, good days and bad days, and its successes and failures. We learn a lot about ourselves from how we handle both (fortunately the successes tend to far outweigh the failures), but often it is the failures that motivate us the most. From my perspective, as Kristen’s #1 cheerleader, fan, and supporter, there is no such thing failure—there are only varying degrees of success.

One Of The Best Birthdays… Ever!

March 4, 2014 by Kristen 15 Comments

Yesterday I had one of the BEST Birthdays I can remember in a long time. It was perfect and I felt incredibly loved by my husband, family, and friends. I still can’t believe I am another year older. The day started much like any other with my morning coffee and cat feeding rituals, but watching the morning news as I usually do was not like any other day. The local NBC affiliate does a daily segment called “Sunrise Birthdays” where viewers can submit a photo and message for an on-air shout out. Unbeknownst to me, Justin submitted a photo of me (circa age 4) and a happy birthday message that took me by surprise. Not even 7am and the birthday celebration is already in full swing!

I then proceeded to get on the trainer to get my exercise for the day out of the way. I am actually partaking in an exercise study at the college (details to come) that requires me not to exercise for 24 hours prior to participating, so the morning was the only time I could train and get in a solid 25 mile ride.

While cooling down on my ride, I decided to catch up on reading blogs and email on my iPad. As I was scrolling through I came across a blog post from my friend Teresa at Where The *Bleep* Is Our Stork giving me a very heartfelt and thoughtful Happy Birthday shout out. I seriously teared up when I saw this because it took so much time and effort. Teresa is a beautiful soul and I have learned so much from her about finding strength and courage during difficult times.

Later that morning I met up with my mom, who was so wonderful and treated me to coffee at Strictly Organic and a matinee movie. Because the weather was windy and rainy, we opted for a cozy theater. We watched Son of God, which was really good and emotional. I felt lifted walking out of the theater.

When I returned home I was welcomed with a HUGE surprise from my husband – roses, a balloon, cupcake, card, champagne, and present in the form of a tri-bike! It wasn’t an actual tri-bike, but a picture of three to decide from when we head up to Portland for the weekend! Which one will I choose!!!???

Soon after receiving my surprise, my husband arrived home from work and we enjoyed a relaxing evening together. Justin is an amazing cook and prepared for me one of my favorite dishes – scallops, brussels sprouts, and bacon. I felt incredibly spoiled.

And of course, no Birthday that falls on a Monday is complete without a little “Women Tell All” on the Bachelor. I enjoyed a yummy glass of wine and salted caramel cupcake from Ida’s while my husband rubbed my feet. Can you say Heaven?

What an amazing day. SO thankful to my husband, family, friends, and all of those who made it a little extra special.

What is the best Birthday you have ever had? Any that are memorable?

Ironman Boise 70.3 – Here I Come!

January 30, 2014 by Kristen 26 Comments

I have fully committed, by hitting the notorious “submit” button (aka investing a lot of money) to my FIRST EVER triathlon! Yep, on June 7 I will be headed to Boise to compete in my first half Ironman distance triathlon.

A couple days ago I posted a blog about signing up for my first marathon, with no prior running experience, and everything I learned as a beginner to the sport. I am one who believes that the only way you can truly experience something and know what something feels like, is to go out and do it. My rationale behind the post wasn’t to venture back to my “amateur” days, but to convince myself that anything is possible if I am confident and have the will, drive, heart, and determination to succeed.

Well, once again I have done something completely out of my comfort zone, something that I have never done before. I have signed up for Ironman Boise 70.3 → my first triathlon ever. I have been playing with the idea of doing a triathlon for some time now, after listening to others stories, watching the joy on people’s faces as they cross the finish line, getting to know people in the triathlon community, and wanting a new challenge for myself. Honestly though, my fear of failure and the unknown has held me back and made me doubt that this is truly possible.

Before signing up, I was questioning my abilities and whether I should try a few sprint or Olympic distance races first. I only started swimming a month ago and have never swum in a “race” environment before or in open water… just in the comfort of our local indoor 4-lane pool. I must be crazy right?

Yes. Well, not really. I feel completely comfortable and confident on the bike and run. If I can just make it through the 1 mile, 1 loop swim, I will be golden. However, here are the worries that circulate through my mind as I start thinking about the swim:

1) Drowning (first and foremost)
2) Getting kicked in the lip, eye, head, or any other important body part
3) Not finishing. Therefore, drowning
4) Swimming in the wrong direction and ending up stranded and alone
5) Drowning

That about sums it up. But I guess these feelings are similar to those I had when signing up for and running my fist marathon. Will I finish? Will my body hold up? Will I survive?
Will I…
Will I…

Well, all I can do is tri. ☺ Everyone has to start somewhere. No matter if you are considering a 5K, half-marathon, triathlon, or marathon, there is a starting point for everyone. And I say bravo for stepping up to the challenge. Even if I were to do a sprint or Olympic distance, it would still not be the same and will never be the same as a 70.3 or full Ironman. So, I might as well as go all out and make the challenge worth the effort and time I am willing to put in. This is going to be scary – but it’s about time I do something that scares me and challenges me again.

I am looking forward to tracking my training and progress, and everything I learn from this experience as a newcomer, and to look back at this FIRST post one day and say, “YES, I did it!”

Any advice out there for surviving the swim?

What is your most memorable triathlon or race?

What I Learned From My First Marathon

January 26, 2014 by Kristen 32 Comments

As I sit here trying to figure out my athletic goals for the upcoming year, I feel a little nervous and uncertain as to what I am capable of. I have some large ambitions and aspirations that I hope to achieve in the coming year (details to come), but I’ve been second-guessing myself and whether I am ready to take on such challenges. These thoughts however, have made me question, “What is ready?”

When I signed up for my very first marathon (2009 Chevron Houston Marathon), I was a new runner who had never participated in any type of organized race. I decided to forgo the 5K, 10K, and half marathon distances, and shoot for the stars with a marathon distance. Some said I was crazy. Others said I should train for a shorter distance first. But I knew that all I wanted was to run a marathon. I felt ready, even though I had no idea what I was getting myself into.

The first time we do anything, it is a learning experience. I had no expectations going into the run, aside from the promise to myself that I WOULD finish. I was racing for my dad and to raise money for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society, so there was no quitting. What happened during that first race taught me more than I could have imagined.

It was mid-January, blue sunny skies, and cool to start. I lined up with thousands of other runners, completely in awe of what was happening. The atmosphere was electrifying and I felt energy from people around me that I had never experienced before. I started pretty far back in the pack (bad decision #1); not knowing what it would be like once the gun went off. Boom!

It took about two minutes to actually get to the starting line and another twenty minutes before people had spaced out enough to enjoy a little breathing room. I felt as though I was running with the bulls, just at a much slower pace. After 5 miles I was feeling good and decided to take down a GU.

At mile 10 I decided it was time to take down another GU (bad decision #2), but once I did my stomach and intestinal region began to spasm. I passed by three porta potties at mile 11 and decided that I would give it another two miles until the next set of bathrooms, in hopes that the digestive issues would go away (bad decision #3).

They did not go away. In fact, they got much worse, really fast. I knew that I was not going to make it to the next round of porta potties, but really REALLY tried. Luckily, at the time that this was happening the course passed through a residential area, and there were houses on each side of the street. My “issues” got to the point beyond what I could control, and I yelled out into the crowd of cheering bystanders “can I use your house!!!? I have to go!!!” (Good decision #1). A couple waved me over and in I went, sprinting to their beautiful, clean restroom. I did not make it. Well, I kinda did.

Once I was finished and all cleaned up, I ran out thanking them, apologizing for what I had done to their beautiful house, and quickly joined up with the rest of the runners (some of which looked at me with confused expressions). I was so embarrassed and uncomfortable, but kept going. I saw my mom at Mile 13, told her what had happened (almost breaking down into tears), and continued on after hearing a few encouraging words.

Everything after that was pretty fine and dandy until I hit a wall at mile 19. OHHHH, this is the “wall” that everyone talks about. I started feeling as though my body had transformed into what would be my 90-year old body in the future. Aches and pains shooting in places I did not know existed. I never stopped though and kept plugging along at the pace I had been running for most of the race.

At mile 23 there was a sharp corner that pretty much turns onto the 3-mile home stretch straight into the downtown area. This was also location of a huge beer stop for those who are tired of Gatorade and water. Hey, I like beer. I was thirsty. So, I decided to take a sip (bad decision #4). My thoughts after hydrating on beer were “dumb, dumb, dumb” as I started to feel queasy. COME ON, I’m almost there, I told myself.

I snapped out of it, and pushed through, every step a little closer to the cheers echoing out of the large buildings that hovered over downtown. I could see the finish line. I could see the people around me, cheering, smiling, and sharing this moment with me. I crossed and it was AMAZING. I cried. I finished!

So there you have it. I did something completely out of my comfort zone that I believed I was capable of. It wasn’t perfect. It wasn’t fast. It definitely wasn’t pretty. But it was my FIRST marathon and a moment I will never forget. When I think back to it, even today, I realize how much that experience taught me about running, goals, and challenges I will face.

I decided to compile a list of things that I learned from that ONE experience that I carry with me today:

1) Anything new is somewhat scary…

2) But also without expectations. Sure I had goals, but I didn’t know what to expect mentally, physically, and emotionally. I think going into a new situation without expectations makes it THAT much better.

3) Doing something for the first time is EMOTIONAL. Mentally and Physically I was challenged, but I had no idea that the emotional element of racing would trump all else. It is one of the most euphoric feelings in the world!

4) Encourage those around you. You are in it together.

5) Thank the volunteers and people who come out to support and cheer. They aren’t getting paid. They are out there for YOU. Also, give special thanks to those that allow you to run into their home and destroy their bathroom. ☺

6) Beer at mile 23 (or anytime during the run for that matter) is a bad idea. Delay the gratification and celebrate with a beer AFTER you are finished.

7) Porta Potties are there for a reason. Use them! When you are out there for an endurance event, the body will likely lose its sense of control, at some point. I actually study the course map prior to any run and have the porta potty locations engraved into my head.

8) Don’t overdue the GU. I believe I took down 5 GUs while I was out there on the course, and the thought of it now makes me cringe. I currently use three GUs and try to fuel up on other foods that are offered along the course. Too much GU can be a bad thing.

9) Discover Body Glide. I had no idea what chaffing was until I entered the shower after the marathon. It is now a running MUST.

10) Start at a good pace. Don’t go out too fast and don’t get yourself in a starting position where you become frustrated weaving through people. I now like to start a little ahead of the pace I would like to run, just to avoid excess weaving.

11) Enjoy it and take it all in. There is nothing better than seeing months of hard work and training come to fruition.

12) Runners high is real. And awesome. And addicting.

12) Running for THAT long will force you to reflect on things that get buried inside, and it will likely put you in a place where you rarely go.

14) It’s not all about you. Runners can’t do it alone. My family flew out to Houston to show their support and cheer me on at different places along the course. My husband takes time out of his life to train with me, travel with me, be there with me, and cheer me on from start to finish. I couldn’t do it without the support of family, friends, trainers, and other runners. It takes a community to make one runner.

I have also learned that we are all capable if we believe in ourselves and have others who believe in us. You can never really prepare yourself enough, because quite frankly, you will never know what to expect until you are actually in that moment. I have now run six marathons and all of them have brought me different experiences and challenges. No two marathons are exactly the same.

When it comes to figuring out “What am I ready for? What can I handle?” I find it a difficult question to answer, primarily because we never know what we are ready for or what we can handle – but chances are, it’s a lot more than we think.

And given these thoughts, I am excited to set some new goals and once again face the unknown – details to come…

Have you ever had an embarrassing or unexpected experience while running?

What have you learned from past experiences that you still carry with you today? Any advice?

A Week of Christmas Celebrations

December 27, 2013 by Kristen 2 Comments

What a whirlwind of a Christmas week! Why does it always seem like the holidays take forever to get here, but then fly by way too fast? It has been so nice staying home and celebrating with friends and family in the area. This past week has been filled with parties, quality time, and new adventures!

Friday: I did some last minute Christmas shopping, joined my mom for a class at Barre 3, and got ready for the DVA holiday party (Justin’s company). The party was really enjoyable with great food from Zydeco, lots of laughs, and plenty of entertainment including Justin performing a “party trick” that had people laughing hysterically and a little grossed out at the same time. I won’t go into detail. ☺

After we left, Justin and I decided to swing by Club 300 and watch our friends do some karaoke. Although I do not (and will not) sing, it was pretty fantastic to watch others embarrass themselves…er, I mean perform.

Saturday: Justin and I slept in until 7:15 (yes, this is sleeping in) and then went to the gym for a little workout to start the day. This was followed by a few hours of shopping (we purchased me a swimsuit, goggles, and swim cap so that I can get my booty into the pool) and lunch at Bend’s food cart pod: The Lot. We just can’t get enough of this place. The yellow curry at Thailandia and Cuban sandwich from Real Food Street Bistro were ridiculously tasty.
That evening, Justin and I attended another Christmas party with his fly fishing buddies (AKA the Hermanos) and spouses. It was great to catch up with everyone and share in the laughter as people opened their white elephant gifts. There may or may not be a few of these gifts visible in these pictures…
Sunday: My first time at the pool. Justin gave me some pointers and off I went. We swam for about 30 minutes (on and off) and then relaxed in the hot tub. I could not believe how tired I was and how quickly the fatigue took over.

At least the only thing on our schedule for the rest of the day was football, football, and more football. The Seahawks lost, which was disappointing, but at least it will make for an exciting Week 17.

Monday: Was filled with last minute Christmas shopping and Christmas parties. It was basically a cram it all in before Christmas Eve type of day. That night, we attended a Christmas party for one of Justin’s clients, the Central Oregon Visitors Association. The party was held at the home of Chef Bette Fraser of Well Traveled Fork, who does culinary tours and cooking classes in Bend. Her home, which she uses for cooking classes and features a commercial wood burning pizza oven, was beautiful and easily accommodated the 50 or so party guests.

Tuesday: Happy Christmas Eve! Justin and I started the day with an early morning 30-minute swim and dip in the hot tub. I felt such a difference already after only two times in the pool and was much less tired when we were done.

We got cleaned up and headed to the movies for a matinee showing of Anchorman 2. Surprisingly, there was no one in the theater so we decided to goof around and document our movie going experience. Come on, who hasn’t ventured back to their childlike ways when given the opportunity?
The movie was really disappointing and I would not recommend seeing it in the theater (unless you REALLY like stupid movies). Later that afternoon we met up with my mom and stepdad for the Christmas Eve service at Westside Church and a movie to follow. The candlelit service was beautiful as always and movie #2 (American Hustle) was much better than the first. Yes, two movies in one day, that’s how we roll. Justin and I even hit up the photo booth for the first time in our relationship (and Justin’s first time ever…what a sheltered life!). Pretty impressive, eh?

Wednesday: Happy Birthday Jesus and Merry Christmas to all! Our morning started with a quick coffee run and gorgeous sunrise.

After returning home, we cozied up in the living room and started opening gifts. Stocking stuffers were first – notice the running and sweet tooth theme?

Justin also got me a few of my favorite scratch-it tickets – the crossword style – so that I could win back all the money we spent on gifts. 😉

I received a few gifts from Justin and his family that will be really great for upcoming trip to Africa (only 6 more weeks!!!) including this cute safari hat, packing cubes, and safari pants. Justin got a Gro Pro camera and a number of other things (this fabulous shirt) that he can take on the trip as well. But I doubt I’ll be taking my new skate skis with me on the trip!
Once we were finished with gifts and getting ready, Justin and I headed up to Mt. Bachelor for a couple hours in the sunshine and snow. It was fun to watch the tubers coming down the mountain and we will definitely be adding this activity to our winter “to do” list.

Following our trip to the mountain, we joined my mom and stepdad for Christmas dinner and a movie. Justin cooked up a batch of his delicious chicken chili (which was a hit, of course) and we feasted next to the fire. After some time talking and exchanging gifts, we were off to see The Hobbit. I’m a big fan of these books and movies, so I really liked it – very action packed but what a cliffhanger of an ending!

Thursday: Yesterday was an activity filled day for Justin and I. We started with an early morning swim (my longest and best yet), followed by a stop at REI to purchase new sleeping bags and roll pads with Christmas gift cards from my mom and stepdad. We then headed up to the mountain for some cross country skiing!

Although the snow was not that great for XC, the weather and company could not have been better. Justin and I started at the Nordic lodge and made our way to Todd Lake along the Cascades Lakes HWY.

The highway is closed in winter but open to snowmobiles and skiers. Given the lack of recent snow, the snowmobile tracks keep the snow a little soft and easier to navigate than the icy XC ski trails to the lake.
Apparently, skiing is not the only activity people can do on the snow in bike-crazy Bend.

After a couple of hours on the skis, we made our way back to car and headed back to Bend to get ready for a going away party for our friend Tom, who is moving to San Francisco to be with his girlfriend (and our new friend) Laura. We met up with them at McMenamins , listened to some live music, and eventually said our goodbyes.

It was quite the holiday week! Now it’s time to get caught up on the day-to-day schedule and enjoy some down time. I hope everyone had a great Christmas!

“Tree” Degrees Outside

December 8, 2013 by Kristen 1 Comment

Yesterday was the perfect day to get out in the snow, hunt for a Christmas tree and decorate the house. Although the temperature was only 3* (Brrrrrrr) Justin and I made sure to pile on the layers to stay warm. After pit stops at the Home Depot and Starbucks, we were off on an adventure into a Winter Wonderland!

We drove out to the Deschutes National Forest, past Sisters and toward McKenzie Pass, and wandered around a few back roads before parking and heading out on foot.

It was cold, but with 4 layers up top and two on the bottom, I actually felt warm the entire time.

The views were gorgeous with all the fresh snow and the sun slowly crept out through the high clouds making for some pretty spectacular colors in the sky.

Justin and I found three trees that had good potential. One was the perfect height, had an even number of branches, but was a little thin. One had three trunks coming out of one base, strong branches, but was a bit big (8inch base). And, one was the perfect height, had a good number of strong branches, and was even all the way around. Ding Ding Ding – we have a winner! Justin took out his fancy new saw and brought down the tree within minutes.

We also found a cute Charlie Brown tree that we decided would look great on the fireplace mantel – chop chop!

We made our way back to the car, loaded up both trees, tied the big one to the roof, and retraced our tire tracks out of the snow and back to Bend.

Once we arrived home, we got out all the Christmas décor and started showering the house with lights, candles, and random Christmas items. We decorated the fireplace, dining room, and living room to the max.

Next, we got out all of our ornaments and laid them out on the table before going to town on the tree. I love opening that box of ornaments and reminiscing about the history and significance of each one. We seemed to have had a football/fishing/sparkle theme going on. My favorite ornaments would have to be the Swarovski Crystal snowflakes—eight and counting—that Justin’s mom sends each year.

This is our first year having a tree with our cat, Benny, thus we were careful to put the more valuable/breakable ornaments near the top. He found the entire process very intriguing.

Before and After – One of the best “Wild” Christmas trees Justin and I have ever seen. I think next year I plan to purchase a string or two of colored lights to add a little more pizzazz!

What is your favorite Christmas ornament or holiday tradition?

October, Please Don’t Go

October 29, 2013 by Kristen Leave a Comment

Wow, I can hardly believe that Halloween is days away, which means that November is right around the corner. Goodbye, beautiful, colorful, festive, October. You brought me so many wonderful days.

Update on life as of lately:

Training: This has been an intense month of training for the Seattle Marathon. I’ve logged more miles this month than any other in the past.

Week One: 30 Miles (long run 16 miles)
Week Two: 38 Miles (long run 20 miles)
Week Three: 30 Miles (long run Down and Dirty 13 miles)
Week Four: 42 Miles (long run 22.5 miles)

Whew! I am feeling very strong and confident that I can finish with a personal record in Seattle. Luckily, I have had good practice running in the rain and cold. The weather may pose a challenge, but not enough to stop me from doing what I know I am capable of.

Books: With the fall season comes increased interest in curling up on the couch and diving into a good book. Or bubble bath, which happened a couple nights ago.

Currently I am reading Born to Run and have already made a list of my next priority reads, which include Enders Game, Gone Girl, and Divergent. I’ve heard that all of these books are being made into a movie, thus I really want to read them before the movie takes away from my own imagination of characters and setting.

Just Can’t Get Enough: As the days grow shorter, Justin and I find more time to cuddle up and watch a few of our favorite shows. Lately, I have been obsessed with watching:

Game of Thrones –(thank you Gina!)

Survivor – Justin and I are in a character pool where the individual with the character that wins gets all the $$$ I am hoping that Tyson (my character) can make this happen!!!

Walking Dead – I have a love/hate relationship with this show, but can’t stop watching it now….

Football – Enough said. My fantasy team is performing decently. Let’s hope for a great second half to the season. Go Seahawks! Go Beavs!

Things I am looking forward to: The next several weeks are going to be full of adventures and travel. I am particularly looking forward to:

Oregon State Beaver Football in Arizona! Justin and I are heading down to Phoenix and Tempe to visit our friends Kali and Matt and watch the Beavers take on the Arizona Sun Devils. Can’t wait!!!

Getting my office finished: Let’s face it, this is the last room in our new house that needs a little TLC. I have neglected it for way too long. My goal is to make it usable and inviting by the end of November.

One more month of training: I have a few more long runs, including the Happy Girls Dirty Half Marathon next weekend, before I start to taper and get into marathon mode. Official marathon date is December 1 – YES!!!

Snow??? Yesterday, Bend got a trickle of snow (in its bipolar fashion) before yielding to sun and blue skies today. There is a part of me that can’t wait to throw on a pair of cross country skis and GO!

Halloween: This will be our first Halloween in our new house and neighborhood. I have already been told to “prepare for the insanity” as it is a neighborhood where kids flock to by the dozen. Looks like I will be taking another trip to Costco for MORE candy (one for you, one for me, one for you, one for me….)

All in all life is good. I have no complaints and am really looking forward to the coming months. YAY HOLIDAYS.

A Weekend of Anniversary Celebrations

August 20, 2013 by Kristen 2 Comments

Our first anniversary as husband and wife! Justin and I played with the idea of going big and taking a trip, but decided to stay in Central Oregon and save the trip for the colder months (to get away somewhere warm). Instead, we enjoyed a staycation and spent the weekend doing the things we love around Bend.

Friday, August 16

Once Justin was off work, he rushed home to pick me up and take me to a movie. I absolutely love the whole experience of going to the theater, from the big screen to the oh so bad for you popcorn (my vice!), and probably have more points on my regal card than most people. We opted to see We’re the Millers, which was absolutely hilarious. Pretty vulgar, but still entertaining enough to leave my stomach aching from laughing so hard.

That night we relaxed, talked about the future (a big trip is in the works), and enjoyed one another’s company.

Saturday, August 17

The day started with an early morning run. Although shorter than many of the runs I do, I was able to step up the pace and run my fastest six miles ever!

After we were finished, Justin had to run a few errands in preparation for the weekend, so I cleaned up and did some work while he was gone. It also gave me a chance to finalize his gifts. When Justin returned home, we packed up and headed out for an eight mile hike around Paulina Lake.

The weather was perfect and the trail scarce with people. As one of my favorite hikes in Central Oregon, the trail frames the water for a majority of the hike. I had done the hike a number of times with my mom growing up and felt some nostalgia while trucking along.

Justin had never been to Paulina so it made for a fun, new adventure.

Roughly five miles into the hike, we stopped around a nice rocky area on the water to have lunch. Justin packed some of my favorite munchies, which he had picked up earlier from Newport Market.

It hit the spot after all of the exercise we had done.

We finished the last three miles, grabbed a cold Diet Sierra Mist at the lodge, and made our way back home.

Justin and I were both fairly worn out from the day’s activities, and decided to relax and stay in for the evening. My wonderful chef decided to prepare Dungeness crab for dinner that evening (my favorite) and we watched and cheered for the Seahawks as they destroyed the Broncos. WOW, they are looking strong already!

Justin also got me hooked on 24 so we ended the night with 24 on Netflix and a bowl of Bordeux Cherry ice cream.

Sunday, August 18

Happy Anniversary!!! For some crazy reason I woke up at 4:30am excited and ready for the day. Justin awoke soon after and we laid in bed and talked for about an hour before getting up.

While drinking my coffee, Justin surprised me with two gifts. The first was a card containing four tickets to Joshua Radin, a singer whom I am very fond of. The second was a box, containing a diamond band to accommodate the other side of my wedding ring. I was completely shocked and have not been able to stop looking at my finger.

For Justin, I created a progressive gift experience whereby Justin would open his first gift at 8:18am and continue every hour until 8:18pm. Most of the gifts were smaller and more sentimental, but the last gift (which I will mention later) was the big surprise.

Following a relaxing morning, we made our way out to Brasada Ranch and immediately found a lounge chair at the pool. It was an afternoon of sun, reading, pool time, and relaxation. I also enjoyed one of their famous cucumber margaritas – one of my favorite drinks on a hot, sunny day next to the pool.

After we were all “sunned out” we gathered our things and checked into our lodge suite. It was perfect and we felt at though we had the entire place to ourselves. Right outside our suite was our own personal fire pit and hot tub.

The staff at Brasada placed strawberries dipped in chocolate and lemon tarts in our refrigerator, along with champagne that we brought that was personalized and gifted to us for our wedding. I absolutely love opening champagne.

Once I finished my glass of champagne, Justin and I were off to dinner at Range. We were seated in a great area with ample views of the mountains.

Justin ordered the shrimp and scallop pasta and I ordered the flat iron steak. We also shared a side of broccolini and truffle roasted mac & cheese. I rarely eat mac & cheese, so this was like dessert to me – amazing!

Finally, 8:18pm rolled around and it was time for Justin to open his final gift. I will never forget the look on his face when he tore off the paper – tickets to the Seahawks vs. 49ers game! His expression and excitement said it all. I even got a glimpse of a “happy” tear in the corner of his eyes.

Before our bill arrived we were notified by the server that my mom and Billy had arranged for our desserts – so thoughtful! We wandered out onto the patio and reminisced about our wedding night while watching the sunset.

Soon after we headed back to our suite with our dessert to be assembled at the fire pit – s’mores!!! Brasada makes the best home made marshmallows and graham crackers I have ever had. It also makes for a fun experience.

After some time in the hot tub and star gazing, we were off to bed to end a perfect day together.

Monday, August 19

The end to our anniversary weekend, Justin and I both took Monday to unwind and enjoy being home. After leaving Brasada, we decided to take advantage of the nice day and have lunch out on the patio at Tetherow. I probably had one of the best burgers I have ever tasted. No joke! Justin had the french dip sandwich which was pretty incredible as well.

We relaxed the rest of the day and made travel arrangements for our trip to Africa in February. Details to come……