This past year was definitely a year of change. I found out I was pregnant in January (January 18, to be exact) and from that point on the days and weeks and months were like a whirlwind. I would love to say this past year flew by in the blink of an eye, but it didn’t. There were moments that felt like molasses (hello, month eight of pregnancy) and moments that felt like a blur. I’m fine with this. Life seemed to slow down for the first time in a long time, which in some ways was a blessing in disguise. What an amazing year it has been.
It amazes me how a single moment like the beginning of a new year can make us all stop and reflect at the same time. Realistically, we could do this at any time, but the change in the year really brings out emotion, reflections, and goals in a new light. We’re all a calendar year older, some of us have aged up a bracket, and our perspectives change for a variety of reasons. Mindsets shift. A blank slate magically appears and we get to hit the reset button and start over, in a sense. It really is a good feeling.
I have learned a lot about myself this past year – my strengths, my weaknesses, and the areas of my life I can really work on. Sometimes we can get so caught up in a routine that we don’t know our own faults or shortcomings until things begin to shift and abruptly change. I learned a lesson in patience, humility, and selflessness; putting my son’s life before my own.
Highlights of 2015
- Sharing the pregnancy news with family
- Running the Bend Half Marathon while pregnant
- Isla Holbox – our babymoon
- Logging record mileage in the mountains
- Meeting our son Axel
- Getting back into fitness
If there is anything the past year has taught me, it is that you have to be flexible and able to adapt. Once I found out I was pregnant, all of the goals I had set for myself in 2015 were suddenly and abruptly put on hold to be revisited another day. Sometimes, that’s just the way life is. I looked back at a post from this time last year, sharing my goals and dreams for the year. While many of these goals were placed aside, I was able to travel and explore, live more in the present each day, and set new goals that aligned with my life at the time such as staying active during pregnancy, and fulfilling the miracle of bringing a human life into the world.
What are my goals for 2016?
* First and foremost, continuing to adapt to and learn about my role as mom. This one hasn’t been easy for me, and I continue to have ups and downs (although, there are far more ups), but I feel like I am finally starting to find my groove. This will be a big year with many firsts (first teeth, first words, first steps, etc.) and I can’t wait to be present for it all.
* Make more time for Justin and I as a couple. We used to do everything together and now it seems like one of us watches Axel while the other does “their thing” and vice versa. I know this will get easier as Axel gets older and is able to tag along, but until then we’re going to make sure and dedicate time to just the two of us.
* Take a trip. I admit, the thought of traveling with Axel right now gives me major anxiety. I enjoy the comfort of our home and having everything we need easily accessible. That being said, people travel with babies ALL THE TIME and I need to get over my hesitation about it. My goal in 2016 is to at least plan a trip so that we can take advantage of the kids fly free under the age of 2 deal! I would really like to go back to Maui, though Justin continues to lobby hard for a return trip to Isla Holbox. Guess who’s going to win this one? ☺
* Pray more. This one is pretty self explanatory, but I really believe in the power of prayer and the spirituality associated with it. I am looking forward to more meditation, reflection, and prayer.
* PR Half Marathon. I really want to up my run game this year and earn some new PRs. My current PR for half marathon distance is 1:38 and I’d really like to run a sub 1:35. Currently I am contemplating the Bend Half Marathon and Eugene Half Marathon.
* Run a marathon. I may hold off until Boston 2017, but there is a chance I will revisit the California International Marathon in 2016 if I am feeling up to it. I have a big question mark here because I simply will not know how I will feel after my Ironman.
* Organize and cleanse my life. I’ve been reading The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up and have really been trying to get rid of “stuff.” If I don’t wear or use it, or if it doesn’t bring me joy, I plan to part ways with it. Let 2016 be the year of the cleanse.
And, last but not least… do what I set out to do this time last year and complete my first Ironman. That’s right, I have officially signed up for Ironman Coeur d’Alene and will be making the 140.6 mile swim-bike-run journey on August 21, 2016.
This past year really allowed me to reflect on WHY I want to do an Ironman. Anyone can say they want to do something just to say they did it, or to check it off the ol’ bucket list (an Ironman has certainly been on my list), but I wanted to know deep down in my heart why I want to do it. Why is this a big dream of mine? I only ask these questions because I know the time commitment and sacrifice not just by me, but by Justin too. It means time away from my husband. It means time away from my son.
I guess the answer is simple. It means doing something for me. It means I get to challenge myself to a level that such a small percentage of the population gets to experience. It means I get to explore unfamiliar waters and grow in new and different ways. And, ironically, it will allow me be a better wife to my husband and mom to my son, because I will be doing something that I love and in turn be a happier person. Endorphins are no joke! My motto: Life changes, your dreams don’t have to.
Is it going to be hard? Yes.
Will there be days I don’t want to train, or points during the race when I will want to quit? Yes.
Will I question my sanity? Yes, I already have. Multiple times.
Can I do it? Watch me.
I’m looking forward to testing myself, conquering fears, and realizing my potential as I embark on new distances, greater intensity, and a journey in fitness beyond any other. I’m excited to connect with and train with others, and to support others as they strive for new goals and ambitions. There are so many people I know taking a leap to go bigger and higher than ever before. Very exciting!
So here I am, once again preparing for a journey I was ready to take exactly one year ago. This year will be different. My husband AND SON, along with many others, will be there cheering for me, supporting me, and fueling me when the tank feels empty. I can’t wait to see this unfold.
Ironman training officially starts today. Let’s do this.
What is one important goal you hope to achieve in 2016?
Do you have a life motto?